Summer

stolen from flickr


14+ years of schooling has taught us that summer is equivalent to rest, and fun, and joyful senseless living, free from work, and deadlines, and things we "need" to do.

Now, 10 years after graduating, I still can't shake of the lethargy and inability to focus on tasks at hand. And it is with a looming deadline and a ton of things to write, that I find myself verbally constipated. I need a couple of hours going non-verbal at eye-candy blogs for the words to flow. I like looking at pictures of verbs, of things I like doing.

My usual haunts.

Le Love

Le Smoke



Fffound

Unruly Things

An Indie Rock Alphabet book

I rarely click on web banners, but I just couldn't resist this one... and a wise click that turned out to be...
stolen from pastemagazine




One day, in my hypothetical dream life, I will write and lay-out storybooks before my husband and kids wake for their bacon-egg-tomato breakfast.

back

stolen from le love


missed me? hahah...i remember one of my new year's resolutions being to "blog less, live more"... but not forego blogging altogether. blame my lengthy absence from work. i never thought that thinking for a living would be that tiring and time consuming...

but things are a bit laid back now. the bosses are panicking less and giving us time to think. and for me that's time to catch up on friends, and what's going on in the lives of my lurkees and in weblandia in general, and time to blog.

but this will be a short one as I have a film to finish. hopefully i can get the money by month's end or early march.

i had a haircut last new moon, bought new slippers and vitamin E. but my insides are dying. i need to feel the love of people around me, but how is that when 80% of the time I'm working with people who don't know me well enough. i couldn't do any of the soul-healthy things I used to like play with declan, play bass, listen to other people play music and read poems, drink with friends, watch films, sleep, stay in bed a few moments upon waking to contemplate on dreams, read good books, and write for writing's sake... I couldn't do any of those things.

And now I am sick, and coughing. And my voice is gone. Literally and figuratively.

But I get by. I bought new flats in black and blue and ate expensive pasta the other day. I will try to dress nicely and not be a slob. I will just think that I have a paycheck large enough to send declan to daily therapy, and maybe save up a little each month for investment in stocks later if and when the financial situation clears. and maybe if I manage to continue teaching while writing, I could save up for my little films. And those thoughts are enough to keep me going. Oh, and the nasty things like nicotine, and caffeine, and beer.

One day, I will be rich enough to buy art and make art everyday. One day I will be rich enough to have all the time in the world for myself and the people I love. One day I will no longer be late and rushing for work because I can afford to set schedules and these will be only for the things that matter.

But right now, I have less than 2 hours for lunch, getting ready for work, travelling to work, and working on the assigned story premises and wrapping up this blog.

Seven Inch

see you all at the Balloon Derby 7" ep launch! it's bound to be a big one with strangeometry, dorothy records, and apple crumble records all coming together this one night. december 20... oh yeah, spla will be playing too... i need a new dress (hee!)

and now we're back...

Been busy for the past two weeks doing this

But it seems I can't wind down till next week. Cheques to look out for, thesis defenses, 4 christmas parties, wrapping up deals, deadlines... it's endless.

I wish I were 17 again, fresh-faced and looking forward to the UP Lantern Parade and afterparty. The reality is, I'm 30 wrought like iron, and pining for an hour to myself to get a massage.

oh and this is the nth xmas with no lovelife for me... but then i guess it's too soon to sum up, there's still 10 days... but then i don't really care... i just want the money to come in on time and that i finally meet all the deadlines, and that the film gets finished.

see you next week

A new and important phase in your life is about to begin, where the planets give you the most positive vibration you've had in long while. It's this positive attitude that will carry you through even some of the most gruelling changes which are going to occur. Try to keep in mind that you are not in a race, and that today's road to success involves slow, calculated steps towards your goals

words stolen from cafeastrology
photo stolen from cig harvey

i am my own cheerleader

it's 4:04 in the morning. time for self motivation posters !
(stolen from http://www.booooooom.com)